today is 'nin chor 2'. well, second day of chinese new year. things are.... well, i dunno really if there are fine onot. its CNY and my family are down from Singapore. house is filled with noise and of cos, my cute baby niece, AlysSa >.< oh i just love her. she's just so cute and adorable!! oh well, thats that for CNY. to me, its CNY and days to collect red packets 'angpau'. im not asking alot cos i know i wun be gettin much. its always the same every year. its a MonKey Year!!
sometimes things are not always wot u think it is. some things that u hope for neva come true. some things come true but somehow or rather disappoints u. thats life. like i always say, filled with ups and downs. just have to learn to live with it and get used to it +.+ human beings are human beings. all have feelings. F.E.E.L.I.N.G.S so strong that makes a person fall into the deepest hole or rise to the very top. it all depends on what u choose to feel and think. its all up to urself. its all in the mind.
sweet revenge.....ever wonder why they call it sweet when revenge is not a good thing. its bad enough to think of a revenge but it gets worst when u actually do it. BUT..... ever thought that when u actually had ur revenge, u'd feel good??? i think u will feel like u accomplished some kinda task which was planned a long time ago. the yearning to accomplish the task has been successful. and doesn't that make u feel good in a way? well, i think it does cos im human. its like.... u got even with someone. and then u go " hey, we're even" +.+ but but, it doesn't balance up. sumtimes u think u didn't do enough to get even and u feel like doing more. *sigh* i dunno.
well, my point being.... its all in the mind. the mind is the main reason. sometimes, u really wanna forget about stuff but u just cant. when u try so hard not to think about it the whole day, it just COMES BACK to u at nite before u go to bed. it COMES BACK to u when u are not even thinking about it. it COMES BACK to u when u see something. u know....i really want certain memories to be erased, to be deleted like a computer file, just like that movie 'Paycheck'.
just that tiny part thats eating me to be vanished forever and ever from my life!! i WISH!! i really WISH!! *sigh*
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