:: The Chronicles of ß ë ë ::

just got back from "Butterfly Effect" by Ashton Kutcher. i thought the movie was not bad tho. i realised every movie that i saw, i try to link them to my life. i try to see whether my life is sumtin like this girl from the movie or whether my mind is as lost as hers? well, BE is about this kid who is haunted by the suppressed memories of his violent past when he was young. basically, he dunno who he is cos he keeps blanking out and he doesn't remember a thing. hence, he keeps journals to keep track of his daily life.

i believe that certain memories will be better left forgotten. while i was watchin, i thought of blanking out at a point in time and wake up to realise that i dun remember the things that hurt me, so i wun be sad and cry over it. its like this part in the movie where he doesn't remember him and his fwens blowing up a woman and her baby with a dynamite. then.... this girl asks him "u really dun remember? u are so lucky!!" thats wot i think she said tho. of cos, its a bad thing to remember. why dwell into it when it hurts to know the truth??? when it hurts so bad and it clings to u for the rest of your life??

i found this quote from the BE website:
We all have moments when we wish we could change something. Right a wrong. Correct a mistake. Gain love -- or power. What if we really could? its called the 'Chaos Theory' explored by some provocative thinkers on the cause and effect of one's life.

personally, i think if we really could, the world will be such a better place for us to live in. but then again, the outcome will not turn out to be the way we expected it to be. it might turn bad or it might be good. its just the M.I.N.D again that keeps changing thoughts about what oneself really really needs!! some people are selfish where they think about nothing or no one but only for themselves.
the ending was where he lets go of the girl he loves and the outcome of his new story turned out well. i didnt expect the ending to be like that. sometimes i dun understand life. i dun understand the decisions ppl make. i dun understand how can one give up on love so easily? +.+ o well, i dun understand alot of things.