*gosH* lets see.... friday was a blast!! *hehe* me and chengy went clubbing at Sublime and we came home around 7.30 am!! OMG OMG!! crazzzzzzzzzzzy!!! well, we got in for free tho cos our names were on this guest list thingy. the line was superbly long but..... *hush*hush* we HAD our ways. yes yes we DO~ *hehe* plus, that was like the first and last time we're ever gonna do that again *haha* it was mad!! seroiusly!! then, we were so hungry after that and stopped by macca's. well, that made my whole saturday slumber cos by the time i woke up *hoho* the day was half gone nway.
things were back to normal then. nothing interesting i guess. then again, i think its time to start work. oh dear *sigh* worst thing was, i found out last nite that my partner for presentation had dropped out of acctg and that leaves me alone. fark man. how can that happen? wot am i suppose to do now? so crap~~ screws up everything cos its not goin too well now. blooody hell. arggggh~ oh well....SHIT happenS!!
ever wonder how things are slowly getting quieter? the quieter it gets, the further it leads to nothing much more to say. then it just dies off......just like that. no contact, no nothing. but why?? oh ..... why?? i duno. its just happens. i realise feelings do just fade away. its prolly due to what ppl did to u and what the consequences were. ur mind is stuck there. not goin back. running away?? hmmmm....maybe, ok...maybe for me, i guess.
all boils down to the question: what do i want? im uncertain of countless amounts of things i have to decide but i neva regretted anything i decided. well, then again, its not like they were big decisions or anything, just normal routine decisions i had to make as i go along with life. hmmmmm...... so....what do i want? >.<
all i want is nothing to worry about in life, WHICH is blatantly a fairy tale. there is always sumtin to worry about. little things, big things, things that dun really affect u but u still worry about it, i wonder why?? its just those thoughts that buries ur mind and will possibly drown u one day. that might kill ur mind and then u'll feel so miserable and lost. ur sense of direction in life suddenly just stops there and nothing else happens. why?? why is that?? why?? it happens ....... but for me??
of cos.....it happens to everyone at one point in time. depends on how big the impact is on ya *sigh* you will keep thinking and thinking about it. eventually, trust me!! u will drown urself in it until u get out of it. and by the time u get over it, you'll feel like a huge burden is released from ur head. u no longer have to be sad, think and cry over it anymore.
its like u have passed a stage where u can just be ok because all ur feelings just can't be bothered about it anymore. u've just been too damn sad about stuff and it kills u. besides, u wouldn't want that to happen again. who wanna stay sad? who wanna keep thinking about sad stuff? and can't i feel ok?? i just wanna feel ok. feel fine. i wanna feel OK and FINE~ i dun wanna be SAD!!
ah....whatever.... its just me and my stoooooopid thoughts... >.<
feeling quiet now. so dun talk to me~ +.+
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