i finally stopped cleaning up my room *gosh* i found my primary school report card the other day and OMG...... how hilarious i found it. the things my teachers said about me. all my years of reports stated that 'Bee Wei could do better if she was less talkative' and 'Bee Wei should talk lesser in class in order to be more attentive'. LOL!! geeeeeeeeez.....i din realise that i talked that much. every year of my report card stated the same thing!! >.< *haha* well, i found it really amusing because it super contradicts to who i am now, i think.
i mean, do i talk alot??? NO! thats the answer i will get, i suppose. answers like i dun talk. i dun voice myself out. i dun say my thoughts. i dun tell wot i feel. i dun say much. bottomline, I DUN TALK MUCH. yeah? hmmmmm?? *haha* ok, maybe my problem is, i've talked too much in my younger years, hence, the less talkative i've grown up to be. cos i wanted to be more attentive in class *HAHAHAHA*
lookin back at my report card was like reading a comic book without pictures tho >.< cos i was laffin while reading it. oh well, like i said. ppl change. things change. man~ i always say that. and im pretty sure feelings change too *sigh*
not that i wan my feelings to change but.....there are some things that i hope to change. oh wot the hell am i on about? hmmmmmm~ how shall i put this?
sometimes, i feel miserable cos i miss someone. sometimes, i feel fine cos i try not to think about it. then again, when i start thinking about things, i'll feel down again missing all the things that happened, mostly i miss SYDNEY. then, i'll feel pissed off at my mum all of a sudden. wonder wot has my mum got to do with this?? *hehe* ahhh yes.....she plays an important role in my part of my issues. OMG!! wots wrong with me? *grrrrrrrr* i feel crap at times too.
*sigh* its been so long since i felt like this. feelings towards my mum.....feelings towards everything thats happening. hard to believe that im like this. its hard to explain but i mite go insane one day, if im still like this. OMG~ yeah~ im goin nuts soon enuff. then again, aint i already a NUTcase?? *haha* >.< i always tell myself that im not that kinda person that thinks alot, but but, it hit me today that i DO!! i dunno how it got thru me but, yeah~ i tell myself that cos i DUN WANNA think that much. cos when i start thinking about a certain thing, i start to get worried. then, worrying too much gets my mind in trouble. all that leads to me losing sleep cos i think too damn much *haha*
oh boy. complicated? yeah, i think so. thats y STOP thinking that much!! +.O well, now i tell myself this: dun worry!! just see how things goes~ yupyup! always remind myself that. no worries!! >.<
OH~ and i just remembered aidan telling me to CHILLAX. i was like....wot the hell does that mean?? LOL!! it meant Chill + Relax. get it?? *hahaha* craaaaaaaaaaaaaazy~~ that cracked me up. it was like out of nowhere.
have u ever had the feeling where u really wanna do sumtin but somehow, ur heart just holds u back? it just stops u from doin it. its like a little part of ur mind meddling with ur heart telling u YES, NO, YES, NO, YES, NO!!! feels like u have an angel and a devil on both ur shoulders telling u the good reason and the bad reason. the question is to do or not to do? that is the question.
i was in that kinda dilemma these days, errmmmmmm, well, on certain matters in life? *haha*
i was just wondering if i ever sound Philosophical in my blog?? huh? no?? i guess that question was a joke?? +.O
ahhh~ was just playing the same song over and over again today. i dunno why. i just found the song suited for me today.
Long Night - The Corrs
It doesn't really matter now you're gone
You never were around that much to speak of
Didn't think that I could live without you, baby
It couldn't be that hard to live alone
But I'm all, all alone again
Thinking you will never say
that you'll be home again
And it's gonna be a long night
And it's gonna be cold without your arms
And I`m gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights
It's gonna be a long night
And I know I'm gonna lose this fight
Once upon a time we fell in love
And I thought that I would be the only one
But now I'm on, I'm on my own again
Thinking you will never show
you won't be home again
And it's gonna be a long night
And it's gonna be cold without your arms
And I`m gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights
It's gonna be a long night
And I know I'm gonna lose this fight
Lost in you arms baby
Lost in your arms.......
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