i found out a really amusing thing today (to me, it was). i was at my clients place. as usual, i was on e-messenger. i was just chatting away as i was kinda bored. so i decided to 'nudge' chengy.
i clicked the little icon there just to mess around.
'nudge' once : the screen went shaking
'nudge' twice : don't bother your contacts too often
*HAHAHAHAHA* wot the hell??? omg~ i was laffin all the way *gosh* this is mad!!! wot the hell?!??! omg omg...this is so funny man~ MSN actually has that line *geeeeeeeeeeez* so wot?? like i care?? thats the point of nudging!! no?? *hahaha* madness.
well, today i read aids blog again. i felt as if my blog is like a 'kiddo' blog and aids blog is so damn different. ok, fine. in a way, i feel like hes a super intellectual fella who has his own significant thoughts and he can publish a damn good book about his life *hahaha* OMG~ and compared to mine?? oh bloooody hell. i think i can go kiss my ARSE if i ever had that little notion of publishing a book as well *hahahaha* >.<
oh boy.
i wish i could actually 'write' then i can do journalism or edit sumtin? *hehe* but right now, i dun even know wot im good at? hmmmm~ i like writing, but i cant write shit. i like singing, but as usual, i cant sing shit *hahaha* wot else?? i like eating, but i cant cook shit ^(OO)^ i need to find a part of me that is good at sumtin. no wonder im lost!! *hehe* oh dear. maybe im not good at anything. hmmmmmmmmmm ;oP crap~ im crap~
and i always muse around on questions that i tend to seek. it will just linger around my mind all day long but yet, i will not get the answer. thats because I, bee bee~ is too damn lazy to actually do anything about it. the 'me' will always think "gee, i cant be bothered to, if it happens, it happens for a reason" and then i just dun do nuts about it. i guess i shd really change myself. i shd motivate me. i shd be more aggresive and affirmative with myself!! i shd ask for answers!! i shd do wot i shd!! i shd seek for my path for the sake of my future!! +.O *hehe*
sometimes, i just dun get wot ppl think. its like....hot for a moment, then cold the next *gosh* then totally, no news about it. i hate it when im left wandering by myself. its like....im 'rootless' all of a sudden. duno where im headed to. duno where im goin. duno wots gonna happen. the future is~ i'd say..... not there when u think about it. up to u to decide really. oh boy~ O.O
i wish things would be the same again. not all things, but some *sigh*
ahhhh~ i wanna just hang out, eat and watch movies.....even bum around the pool doin nothing.
but now?? all seems to have unexpectedly faded away~ i wonder why??
*sigh*
partly my fault?? i guess i din do anything about it. the doin absolutely 'NOTHING' seems to kill everything! destroyed my future, i suppose? >.< oh well. shit happens!
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