Mary Schmich quotes:
“Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. The older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.”
personally, i completely agree! yes, fwens do come and go thru out our entire life, but who is to stay and who is to leave? how can u stop those who are gonna leave? how do u know that making them stay is a wise choice? how do u know if its the best for u or for them? i suppose everyone has their own life to live. they make their own decisions for themselves, good or bad. its really their call to decide. we cant possibly force one to stay with us due 2 our own self-centeredness and our own desires for them to be there when we NEED them.
NEED is an extremely powerful word. the word itself portrays various meanings: Necessity, Obligation, Essential and Requirement. all those words, when mentioned to sumone, will bear a dominant significance. then again, depends on who it is being mentioned to; either to a lover or a fwen? both will however construe an entirely diverse interpretation. isnt it amazing how simple words can denote so much in a relationship? *gosh* the M.I.N.D itself is truly a beautiful organ that has been created.
well, recently, the only thing that has been lingering around in my head is FRIENDSHIP. hence, my current post.
i js cant comprehend how a few years of friendship can js vanish into thin air, as if its gone with the wind. though its not exactly disappearing, but its likely to be diminishing. its as if she has withdrawn herself into her own new world without her old peeps, and i mean ME!!
she seems to forget that all of us had once touched each others hearts and had tremendous fun together. wat happen to all that precious memories? it cant js fade away like that. well, im pretty sure she remembers everything BUT, some part of her is trying to forget sumtin. AND i utterly understand why is she feeling like that. i do, i really do!!
its js that, i cant put up with the fact that she cuts everyone off in her life. its not that im blaming her and its not that shes cutting me off or wateva, BUT, in any case, HAVE the decency to at least greet when we meet. even if not face to face, its not so bad to js walk up to an old fwen and say "hi", issit?? its a simple gesture of politeness to make an acquaintance when u know that sumone. even more so, if that sumone is a VERY long time fwen.
nways, wat im trying to say is that, although i dun NEED her in my daily life, i do NEED her to keep in touch. trust me! i AM trying to keep in touch and trying to talk to her. i cant help it if they dun give me back the same respond. its like a one-sided-rship which clearly neva works out *geeeeeeeeeeez* i hate one sided feelings!!! its crap!! not only it happens with fwens, but also with lovers. neva work, neva work~
lately, i happen to apprehend that there are 2 types of fwens (ppl).
type 1: u know them for a very long time, hence, u know how they act, wat they want and wat is goin on in their M.I.N.D
type 2: u know them for a very long time, hence, u know how they act, wat they want BUT, u will NEVA KNOW wat is goin on in their M.I.N.D
i reckon TYPE 2 is daunting, dun ya think?!?! lets say, u know her/him for 20 years now. u think u know them very well BUT, think again!! u will neva find out wats goin on up there cos its not u. how and wat mite have changed thru out the years. pressure, environment, stress, threats . . . all leads to transformation. its pretty creepy when u find out how one can change 360° in a day.
anyhow, i should stop my M.I.N.D from having unnecessary complicated musings and give it a rest for a week or so, or maybe, give it up already!! *heh* >.< *sigh* that shall depend on myself.
oh, b4 i forget, sumtin happened. sumtin very sudden at a very unexpected moment. a good thing tho. im js kinda enchanted for a few seconds in my own world, in my la-la land.
i've seem to be recapturing the sensation again. sumtin i think that i've lost for months. well, i js hope its comin back and its comin back charmingly!?!?!? *haha* yup, well, i js hope and pray everything will turn out fine.
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