:: The Chronicles of ß ë ë ::

sometimes, u dunno wat to expect.

sometimes, things js happen for a reason.

sometimes, u dunno wat to say.

sometimes, random things js pop up.

sometimes, u wish for things to happen.

sometimes, shit jus happen to happen!

so many 'some' times in life that at one point, u start to wonder about it.

y didnt i do this?
y didnt i think of that?
y didnt i say sumtin about it?
y didnt i act on that matter?
y didnt i give more?
y didnt i sacrifice things?
y didnt i tell him stuff?
y didnt i love him more?

there ARE things in life that are simply unexplainable.
no words in the english context could clarify certain issues.

there ARE problems in relationships that neither one cud actually speak it out. its not easy to put everything on the table and discuss about it. the difficult part, i realise, is when neither one dunno how to start a conversation, which then leads to tension and frustration and then, in the end . . .

"OK. Fine. I dun wanna talk about it"
"OK. Fine. Im tired. Nites"
"OK. Fine. Speak to u tmr then"
"Ok. Fine. Let's not talk about it now"
"Ok. Fine. We'll see how it goes"
"Ok. Fine. Wateva!"

had a little catch up session wit my fwen today.
asked her SO much, SO many times about wats happening in her life but she cudnt tell me. well, she kinda did. all she said was:

"i told u wat. thats it. its been the same problem since the beginning. i also dunno. cannot explain. i dunno. its the same thing"

hmmmmm . . . hence, to sum up . . .

some things are just inconclusive.
some things are just uncertain.
some things are very puzzling.
some things are very doubtful.
some things are questionable.
some things are indeterminate.