Friday, August 15, 2008

arlooo peeeeps.

here is a little something i wrote after days of full-on pondering.

enjoy~~

F.E.E.L.I.N.G

When someone starts to tell me something,
Even when they haven’t finished,
I know it is going to make me cry.

That is when tears build behind my eyes,
Butterflies eating away inside out,
My tummy quivers with unwanted anticipation.
However, I still refuse to cry until I’m certain.

Finally, the moment that I have been waiting,
Comes to pass . . . and I'm being told,
Of something so heartbreaking,
Of something that burns me deep down,
Of something so disheartening,
Of something that makes me cry forever.

Yet again, I can’t seem to cry,
I am shocked,
I am perplexed,
My tears are all held unmoved behind my eyes.

I sit there alone by myself,
Surrounded by the four walls,
Thinking and trying to convince
That everything will be alright.

Nonetheless, after a day of movement,
After a day of fulfilled mind,
After a day of tranquilly thoughts,
I lie there thinking and thinking and still thinking.

Everything that happened,
Has left a creeping unhappiness,
In my head, in my heart, in my soul,
Unexpectedly, it hit me hard . . .

Tears came rolling down swiftly,
I can’t seem to stop them,
Because I came to realization,
That it cannot be mended anymore.

That,
is the ultimate fear,
my ultimate fear.

That,
is the worst feeling ever,
my feeling.

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