i may seem like a happy girl.
i may seem like im totally fine.
i may seem like nothing has happened.
i may seem like everythings alrite.
but deep deep down inside of me, i am truly an emotional bitch.
i cant hold back my tears.
i cant hold back my feelings.
well, i did try, but i failed terribly.
then again, i can try AGAIN, unfortunately, i failed again.
im not a talking person and I AM a cry baby.
the reason that i dun talk much to ppl about things cos i will cry!!
i wonder, does talking break me or make me?? hmmm . . .
yes! i cry easily.
especially when it comes to emo stuff. it will just flow like nobody's business.
hence, i stay away from ppl who talks about their emo stuff or my own.
things happen for a reason.
things happen when time is right.
usually, when things happen, it means: SHIT HAPPENS!!
*sigh*
sometimes, i feel confused about it.
how should i actually feel??
clearly, we dont communicate much.
(sometimes, i feel that i really dun care)
i have not played the best role in your life.
(sometimes, i feel like i should)
im just taking you for granted.
(yes, i feel guilty, but it is ur responsibility)
i never bothered asking.
(sometimes, i know you care, but, at times, you dont bother too)
i dun care about you.
(yes, im selfish, but you are too and not only to me)
i reckon, you're so damn stubborn.
(because u neva listen)
*sigh*
an underlying problem that has been in the closet for years and that will neva change no matter wat happens or whoever says anything.
wat stays, stays the way it is.
you are who you are and nobody can change that.
you are the way you are and you will neva change.
so, i ask . . . wat can i do? how do i feel?
mixed feelings . . . i'd say and i duno how to amend that.
things are just the way it is.
my perception will neva change.
my judgement will neva change.
however, feelings will, depending on situations.
this sucks.
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