:: The Chronicles of ß ë ë ::

too many things happening,
too little time to digest,
so much drama,
and all in the month of May.

i reckon this month SUX big time!!!

it is a cursed black month of the year. every news i hear from the beginning is bound to be depressing. not only that, you just neva tot that it would actually happen to YOU!
am i being superstitious?

i would prolly think that it wont.
i would prolly think its fine.
i would prolly think everything is ok.

BUT . . . NO! shit does happen!

first, i hear colon cancer and low sugar level.
second, colleague passed away.
third, his grand-aunt passed away.
fourth, her loved one has nerve problems.
fifth, family fwen aunt passed away.
sixth, his granpa passed away.

wtf?!?! *sigh* its only less than 2 weeks from the beginning!!

everything seems to be going bad.
what in the world is happening!!?!?!?
on top of all that, it gets worst when u are not trusted.

when there is no trust, u get pissed off.
when u get pissed, u dun feel like talking.
when u dun talk, there is silence.
when no one speaks, it gets awkward.

*sigh*

seriously, i farking hate this month. i wish it neva came so that i wouldnt go thru all this fear and hate and pain. sometimes, i dun even know wat am i feeling.

bitterness? agony? rage? unhappy? suffer? ache?

bottomline, i reckon im selfish and cold.
i care about no one else but myself.
its all about me, me and me.
im not a caring person at all!

fine then.

fuck the world.
fuck the people.
blow the whole shit up!
wait, i think i mite blow myself up.

bah!