:: The Chronicles of ß ë ë ::

how does the mind work? does anyone really know? see, when u dun think about something, it js kinda creeps quietly into ur mind and then, there it is! like memories locked up deep down under where no one knows.

u cant control it. u cant stop it from functioning. obviously, u cant choose at all cos it lives within u and u are the only one keeping them alive.

there were just collective incidents that leads to where it is now.

was watchin 'How I Met Your Mother' and this one episode was talking about why his parents split up and went both ways, yet still very happy with their lives.

come to think of it, wat they sed was very tru, but how much can u relate to it?

they were 2 very different ppl, which they only realised after years of marriage. on some level, they knew that they were not connected on some fundamental levels and they didn't even wanna go out in the beginning. so, it was only a matter of time that they were aware that they were not meant to be together.

isn't that a waste of time?

yes? no? i dunno?

well, some people think that its holding on that makes one strong, but sometimes its just about letting go.

the thing is, wat did u feel was rite?
wat did u think was the best decision?
wat did u think u shd do?

OR

does it depend on wat others say?
wat they think u shd do?
wat they think is right for u?

it wasn't a waste of time. deep down, u knew wat u wanted. u knew wat u hoped for. u knew how u felt. unfortunately, things just didn't work out. u didn't care wat the world tells u. u didn't care wat they think. u js went ur way and tried to make it work, well, hopefully . . . to see if it will.

and yes, i believe it didn't, hence, here i am now.

then wat?

find someone who connects with u in every aspect: mind and soul? someone who has the same wavelength as u? someone who is intellectually challenged? someone who 'gets' u?

question then will be . . .

WAT IF, u found the exact same person as u? and who has the exact same personality as well? wud that be a good or a bad thing? that's the confusing part.

yes. u have so many things in common. u like and dislike the SAME things. u kinda have the same hobbies. u prolly have slight character similarity. isn't that scary? u have so much in common till it kinda freaks u out? isit me? or not?

doesnt it feel like u r seeing urself in the mirror?

doesnt it feel like u r hanging with u?

doenst it feel like u r u?

so, wud u still go on and see where it brings u both?

hmmmmmmm~

*ponders ponders*

u know wat?

i am overwhelmed by my OWN questions!!

screw tis!!

i believe i have much to worry n think about?

*sigh*