:: The Chronicles of ß ë ë ::

'Day 1 - I am OK' . . . is over!

it felt like the whole day was moving so slow with everyone asking how i am, how i've been, how r things . . . and u know the rest.

i totally understand that everyone is very concern about me, but, i just need time. so, thanks 4 being understanding and letting me be ALONE cos i dun feel like talking about it and i cant bring myself to. tears will start building up without me noticing it.

when i drove to the office today, i had a vivid flashback of what happened that day.

from the very moment i picked up her call and heard her crying, my heart fell to pieces. i was shivering and my mind was all over the place. all i wanted to do was to go home pronto and be there before anything happens. so, i flew home in just minutes with my trembling hands and wobbly legs. then, everything happened like a brisk~

*sob sob*

i felt that way all over again tis morning. why is it happening to me? reckon i was just terrified by that very day and i still am?? it sorta just plays back. damn it! hmmmm~

*sigh*

she told me to move on. she told me that sometimes, it will be ok and sometimes, it wun be BUT life goes on and all that just takes time to heal. he sed its not so instant, like hugs, though not so permanent.

*smiles*

i am doin wat i can and i am tryin to be OK. so, we'll see what tomorrow brings and how i feel.

OMG!!!

please do not crumble!!!!!

~ okthanksbye ~

Brinjals . . . come to me now!!

*hugs*