ever get that feeling when u miss or think about a person too much, u will kinda lose it in the end? as in, u get frustrated till u dun feel it anymore or u choose not to feel it. no? ok. maybe its just me then. hah, peculiar how my mind works.
i realize i cant help it. its as if that there is a self defense mechanism that auto detects and activates by itself. hmmm . . . maybe, i built it around me unconsciously thru out all these years. well, part and parcel of being in and out of relationships.
the legendary “Soul Mate” myth has been implanted in our brains since young, from romantic love stories, poems and not forgetting Disney movies of living happily ever after, forever and ever which leads to the endless search for "The One". that is how this became the clear objective in every relationship.
however, nobody said anything about disappointments, break ups, expectations, compromising, bla bla bla... u know the rest. there is no walk-through or guidebook that will teach u the 101 ways on how to maintain a relationship OR how to cope with how one is feeling.
everyone thinks and solves problems differently. but when it comes to yourself being in the relationship, sometimes, u really dunno wat to do, wat to feel, even when u get the best advise there is in the whole world.
the heart is the most fragile and strongest part of the body. it will pump and go one no matter how many times it has been hurt back and forth from extreme measures, as long as there is the determination to go on, it will!
in the end, we will always rationalize for a wrong we did and the words we used. nevertheless, whats said is said and whats done is done. question is, how do u resolve a problem by not holding the anger upon someone? by forgiving and forgetting? is it really that easy at times? i guess u really need a sheer strength of mind.
oh dear. i think i've lost track of wat i was initially suppose to ponder about *ooops*
nways, i honestly think that the self defense mechanism thingy is a way of protecting urself from getting hurt. cause, u are the only one who knows urself best, hence, the reason u created it the way u want it to be. in conclusion, u are afraid and being afraid . . . . somehow overpowers everything else.
'F.E.A.R' stops u from doing something foolish. it mite also save u from bigger problems OR, look the other way, it mite stop u from not going there. does it save or destroy now? >.<
*toodles*
1 comment:
Another classic case of once bitten, twice shy i suppose.
Breakups are a PITA,but no matter how painful it is, at the end of the day u always come out a stronger person because of it.
All Disney characters had stared at the bottom of the barrel before the so called happy ending ensues.
Do not lose faith. There's always light at the end of tunnel.
PS:When everything else has failed listen to Radiohead.
Post a Comment