i had the most extremely weirdest dream ever last nite in my entire life (grammatically wrong but i WANNA STRESS its WEIRD). man~~

it was really really bizzare!!!!
i had blardeee goosebumps when i woke up this morning and i HAD to blog about it.

i was at this new condo with my mum and bro. i believe it was a new unit that we just moved into. we wandered the place to check it out. so, as we were looking around getting to know the areas, we came across a pool.

it was like the 'Luna Bar' pool but abit smaller. it was really cool tho cos there is a mini lap pool IN THE UNIT!! how coooooooL is that? it was like a penthouse man!! *gosh* no wonder its a dream!!! grrrrrr

nways, i got so damn excited that we own a pool, i jumped rite in with my clothes on. wat a brilliant child i am?!!? *haha*

i pulled my mum in with me and we were js strolling from one end to the other. my bro didnt get in cos he was busy wandering sumwhere else with his wife n kids. in the end, both of us got out cos my mum was rushing to prepare dinner and i was actually rushing to meet PP.

off we went to our individual rooms to freshen up.

HOWEVER . . . (this is the part - get ready)

little did i know, i started MUTATING!!!!!

(WAT THE HELL!!)

how creepy is that??? omg!!!?!?!?

colored spikes began to grow on both my hands *eeeeeewwwwww* it was green and red and bloooody hell slimy!!! *yarK*

i totally FREAKED out. i felt like a monster and i was panicking!! i had to go out for dinner and i cant let PP see me like this!!! *arrrghhhh*

i ran to my mum and showed her. she just took my hand and said "its ok. not a problem. this can be fixed. just take it out"

i was like WAAAATTTT!?!?!?! TAKE WAT OUT?!!?!?! HELLOOOO!!!! its like in meeee!!!! HOW TO TAKE OUT!!?!?!? ITS IN MY SKINNNN!!!

the nex thing i know, she started pulling my spikes from my hand. fair enuff. it came out *pheeew* BUT . . . after like 5 seconds, IT GREW BACK!!!!!

@#$*%&@#*%

it was really a spooky and goosebumping (NOTE:word dun exist) exprience. i felt my body shivering and tingling all over.....
my hands continued being like that for the neks god knows how long.

conclusion, i blamed the pool as it was intoxicated with sum kinda chemical!!

and i woke up.

:P

ok.

the end.

bye.

mr.soon-to-share

mr.carpenter

mr.fedup-bout-me

mr.i-dun-care

mr.ridiculous

mr.wateva

mr.up-to-u

so many nicknames.
so little time.
so confusing!!!

*Arghhhhh*

*sigh*

oookies. random. good nite.

bye.

i wonder . . .

wat can u do . . .

if u miss sumone?
if u need a hug?
if u constantly think?
if u r angry?
if u cant let go?
if u r still being STOOOPID?
if u know its wrong?
if u cant say it out?

*sigh*

how?
how?
how?

oh well. i cant do anything.
its the mind's decision.
its her call.
its her territory?

*hehe*

money not enough.

moonlight resonance.

sushi zanmai.

WAREHOUSE!!!

moonlight resonance.

soul'ed out.

mamma mia!

moonlight resonance.
moonlight resonance.
moonlight resonance.

Death race?
Deception?
GIA?
Gossip girl?

*sigh*

why?
why?
why?

*sigh*

wateva . . . wateva . . . wateva . . .

oh please~

anything k.

dun care!

i really dun geddit.

if ur wrong, then pls js stop arguing.
u dun have to admit that u are, i mean, its fine.
i totally understand. u dun have to say it out loud.
but PLEASE STOP arguing when i am right about it.

STOP being ridiculous.
STOP explaining.
STOP saying crap.
STOP thinking ur rite.

u js go on and on arguing about it when CLEARLY, i am RIGHT!!

*sigh*

u explain things which makes no sense.
u explain even more without logic.
u explain and explain about the wrong thing, indirectly thinking ur RITE.
then again, maybe ur trying to be ridiculous.

*sigh*

oh well. wateva . . . im not angweeeee.

i jus cant be bothered to argue anymore.
im js too lazy to.
i will js learn to let it go.

~PEACE~

to my world.

i went walking about last week and i rem seeing . . .

its finally ON SALE!!!!!

my purple dress from WAREHOUSE!!!!

noooooooo!!!!

*sigh*

i need to get it before its too LATE!!!!!

ARghhhhh!!!


well... the style and all is kinda like the one above but imagine it in purple.
then again, if u cant imagine. here u go on the right~

its so damn niceeeeee!!!

the colour, the dress, the me in it *hahaha*

ok. nvm. hopefully its still there.

(PLEASE DUN GET SOLD OUT. PLEASE PLEASE!!)

im comin for u my purple baby. I AM COMIN to bring u home.

la la la~

i reckon confused ppl will always be confused!!
and lost ones are always lost.

*Argggghhhh*

the conpius ones are waiting for sumone to come save them and NOT MAKE them MORE conpius!! blardeeee heLL!!

*sigh*

wat now?
how now?

i dunno. i dunno. i dunno.

actually, prolly deep down, there is an answer but its not told.
then again, I DUNNO.

sum things are not meant to do.
sum stuff are not meant to tell.
sum ppl are not meant to be.

then again, there are so many possibilities in this world.

if u dun try, how would u know?
if u dun tell, how would u know?
if nobody says anything, WHO THE HELL knows?

hmmmm, i reckon its more like a vice versa thing.
u give, i give.
u take, i take.
u do, i do.
u tell, i tell.

(suddenly this sounds like "Simon says . . . " )

well, maybe its wrong but everyone is different in their own unique way.
everyone thinks and do differently, unless u are a twin or u are just meant to be.

and im just one of the abnormal ones that think n do differently.

i just realise that cos my fwen told me yest.

he asked y am i so weird?
y am i crazy?
y am i different?

I DUNNO!!! *sigh*

i really dun . . . ok . . . -_-"

maybe i was brought up like that.
i was trained to be like that.
i was told to be like that.
i was brainwashed to be like that.

i cant help it. its just me.

take it or leave it.
accept it or reject it.

WATEVA!!!

fine. say im selfish or wateva. i dun care.

im tired~ both mentally and physically.

nites . . .

i love hugs. i think hugs means alot.
i can hug and hug and hug all day!

A hug can mean alot.
A hug can mean nothing.
A hug can mean everything.
A hug can mean a thousand words.
A hug can mean a single word too.
A hug can REALLY MEAN something!!!

and i surfed for a pic to illustrate my yearn for hugs all the dam time if i can (COPYRIGHT©MultiCurious)

i think a hug can tell a person sumtin without utterin a single word.
i think a hug can tell a person everything u wanted to say for the past few days.

seriously, a hug can do so much!!
it can totally pour out ur feelings!!

oh oh . . . and i found this as well. this is js so damn cute that i HAD to have it on my blog, well, of cos, its copyrighted to StupidNick (deviantart.com)

isnt this ADoRABLE!?!?!?! i love it!!!! sooo cuteeeee!!! i wan more hug hug now!!!! *Awwwwwwww* where iz me hug?!?!?

i've been deprived of hugs lately

* Sigh * siGh *

mana hug ku?!!?!??! *hehe*

ok. abit out now. i think med is kickin in *haha*

ok.bye.

but but, i wan hug hug!!!!!!!

* sniff * sniff * koff * koff *

*wheeeeeee*

*wheeeeee*

collected my med today and guess wat?!?!?!

i think me koff syrup iz the kickin in~

vely goooood!!!!!

i likeeeeeee!!!!!

guud stuff!!!!!!

*haha*

orite.

no blogs for tonite cos i wun know wat i wanna say.

nitey nite~

:O)

went karaoke-ing over the weekend. man~ brought back my memories. i meant the songs i used to sing brought them back. so many songs that i love and still love and its amazing that i still remember them!!!

but of cos, all the songs i love are damn freaking emo. im prolly born a emo n stubborn n ego child.

*sigh*

a fwen told me js then that nothing will be solved unless one or the other gives in. well, aint he damn rite? it is tru!! therefore, when no one actually gives in, ur farking screwed rite?!?! i guess, then, everything is farking screwed.

oh well. im screwed. nways, js to share an old old song which i used to sing all the time at karaoke years ago.

Zhang Hui Mei - 解脫
曲：許華強 | 詞：姚若龍 | 編：許華強

愛是不夜城 回憶像星辰
熱淚越沸騰 我越感覺有點冷
變了心的人 越想越傷人
枯坐到清晨 陽光替房間開了燈

想 若結局一樣 又何苦再想
傷 若讓人成長 我為什麼怕分手的傷

解脫 是肯承認這是個錯
我不應該還不放手
你有自由走 我有自由好好過
解脫 是懂擦乾淚看以後
找個新方向往前走
這世界遼闊 我總會實現一個夢

心裡有一種渴望勇敢的念頭
不要愛我的人再擔心我

direct translation of 解脫 = extricate

then again, i think all chinese songs are damn emo n sentimental. hence, everybody loves listening to them and cry with them or think about stuff, which explains why im here at the weeeeeee hour of the nite when i have work tmr!!!

damnit!

emo songs make ppl think. well, think of bad things.
it mite stray them away to the 'other side', if u know wat i mean.

hmmmmm~??~?~

ok. i need my rest but im still coughing like shit.

i NEED stronger drowsier medication.
i NEED drugs.
maybe weeeeeeeeds will do the trick? *hehe*

i kinda feel like that atm.

oh wait, I AM feeling like that atm.

i feel like a lump of poofball who is brainless and useless.
i feel like everything is back to square one.
i feel like there is nothing to talk about.
i feel like there is no reason to argue anymore.
i feel that im tired and all i wanna say is *sigh*

nways, the image above is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution - Noncommercial - No Derivative Works 3.0 License.
i have no idea what or where is that but i dun wanna get sued or wateva for usin the image on my blog.

ORITE!

i think i need to get back to work.

haha

Deep Inside of you - Third Eye Blind

When we met light was shed
Thoughts free flow you said you've got something
Deep inside of you
A wind chime voice sound sway of your hips round rings true
Echoes deep inside of you
These secret garden beams changed my life so it seems
Fall breeze blows outside I don't bring stride
My thoughts are warm and they go deep inside of you

Oh yeah
And I never felt alone
Alright alone alone
Till I met you

Friends say Ive changed
I don't listen cause I live to be
Deep inside of you
Slide of her dress shouts in darkness
I'm so alive I'm
Deep inside of you
You said boy make girl feel good
But still deep inside still

Ive never felt alone
Till I met you
I'm alright on my own
Till I met you
And I'd know what to do if I just knew whats coming

I would change myself if I could
Id walk with my own people if I could find them
And I would say that I'm sorry to you
I'm sorry to you but I don't want to call you
But then I want to call you cause I don't want to crush you
But I feel like crushing you and its true
I took for granted you were with me
I breath by your looks and you look right through me

But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it

Right oh whats right
Somethings gone you withdraw and I'm not strong like before I was
Deep inside of you
I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare at a ghost
Deep inside of you
And some great need in me starts to bled
I've lost my self theres nothing left its all gone

Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you

found this song on my itunes while at work and i've been playing it over n over again thru out the whole damn day. ahhhhhh~ how i used to love this song so much! and i still do. i realise that old high skool songs can still make it.

this song is js great! :O)

please enjoy~ like i am rite now~

la la la la~

arlooo peeeeps.

here is a little something i wrote after days of full-on pondering.

enjoy~~

F.E.E.L.I.N.G

When someone starts to tell me something,
Even when they haven’t finished,
I know it is going to make me cry.

That is when tears build behind my eyes,
Butterflies eating away inside out,
My tummy quivers with unwanted anticipation.
However, I still refuse to cry until I’m certain.

Finally, the moment that I have been waiting,
Comes to pass . . . and I'm being told,
Of something so heartbreaking,
Of something that burns me deep down,
Of something so disheartening,
Of something that makes me cry forever.

Yet again, I can’t seem to cry,
I am shocked,
I am perplexed,
My tears are all held unmoved behind my eyes.

I sit there alone by myself,
Surrounded by the four walls,
Thinking and trying to convince
That everything will be alright.

Nonetheless, after a day of movement,
After a day of fulfilled mind,
After a day of tranquilly thoughts,
I lie there thinking and thinking and still thinking.

Everything that happened,
Has left a creeping unhappiness,
In my head, in my heart, in my soul,
Unexpectedly, it hit me hard . . .

Tears came rolling down swiftly,
I can’t seem to stop them,
Because I came to realization,
That it cannot be mended anymore.

That,
is the ultimate fear,
my ultimate fear.

That,
is the worst feeling ever,
my feeling.

i am in a pissy mood today. no doubt bout it. prolly cos im sleep deprived and shit happens and not in a good mood. everything that occured today js PISSED me off. everything js didnt seem rite.

people, family, food, things, words . . . omg!!!!

~ ~
first incident: i got up at like freaking 8am to follow my parents to go pray the 'ghost brothers festival' or sumtin like that.

mum started naggin me about this n that, about me not saving, about me always goin on holiday, about everything under the sun!!!

@#*&!%*

wat the hell did i do??!? just findin fault in me??!? wtf?? prolly i was feeling pissy, hence, i felt annoyed.

~ ~
second incident: picked Pam up to go pay for monthly parking. stooooopid man cudnt even answer a blardeeee simple question *ARggggggH* i was so annoyed!!!

i asked "When can i collect the receipt?"

he answered "YUUUUUUUP!!!!"

im like . . . . . . . . . WTF was tat?

HELLLOOOO!!! dun u freaking get my question???
is my question so difficult to decipher?!?!?!
the idiots in this world~ great~

~ ~
third incident: went to the local pharmacy store to buy toiletries, bla bla bla, went to counter to pay. bill came up to RM35.05. i paid RM50.

lady at the cashier asked for 5 cents and i said i didnt have, so she entered the amount. few seconds later, i realise that i have and i passed it to her.
she (stoopid) stared at me tellin me that she already entered the amount. i stared back at her and replied~!

B: yeah. so js gimme the balance.

S: but i entered already.

B: yea. im givin you 5 cents now. its easier aint it?

S: but its in the system (kept repeatin the sentence nervously)

i just looked at her and insisted to return my balance. only then, i realise the stooopid cashier DUNNO HOW TO COUNT blardeee 5 cents.

how annoying is thAT?!?!?!

S: how much i give u back? its in the system.

B: RM15 la!!!!!! its only 5 cents wat!!!! (damn freaking annoyed)

if u duno how to count, PLEASE DUN be a cashier!!! PLEASE find another job that doesnt involve counting balances.

~ ~
fourth incident: came back home after lunch. mummy made pumpkin dessert and freaking forced me to eat it all. i told her i js got back from lunch. i had a huge lunch. she says JUST EAT IT. ITS GOOD FOR U!!

im like... wtf?!?!?! omg~!!!!! WATEVA!!!! fine. eat then. im not havin dinner!!

*sigh*

everybardeeee have bad n annoying days.

it just is for me today. damn it!

*wateva*

bye!!

its me . . .

again, again and again.

damn!

*sigh*

i have nothing left to say.

fine.

but isnt it js a small blardee matter?

*sigh*

i dunno.

then again, its JUST me again!!

or im a wild monkey who cant be tamed and who cant listen.

:O(

oritey. nothing seems to be resolved since the beginning.
cos both has such freaking big ego.

"if u dun do it, then i WUN do it ANYMORE too. seriously, wat for??"

that line is stuck in my head the whole nite.
orite. fine. great. wat to say?

good luck n good nite to me!

so, issit true?

hmmmmm~

personally, i reckon its VERY very true!! the copy totally explains everything!!

but then again, it depends on wat kinda person he / she is. characters and attitude sums it all up :O)

emo emo emo. screw emo. stooooopid emo.
y am i always emo?!?!?
y tears flow so easily!?!?
i also duno why. i need to see a shrink *haha*
emo iz bee-mo~

*sigh*

nways . . .

i was abit free in the office today, so i figured i shd start surfing and blog randomly. la la la~

oh well.

i'll be MIA for the nex week.
me iz the going to BALI, INDONESIA and KRABI, THAILAND.

wheeeeeeeeeee~

:OP

ok.bye.

so . . . really? do all good things come to an end? hmmmm~
maybe its all js a dream.

yeah. thats wat i do best. i DREAM too damn freaking much about good things cos when reality hits me, it really does HIT! oh well. shit happens rite?!?!?!

Nelly Furtado - All Good Things (Come To An End)

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

**Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

all BAD things should come to an END!!!

i wanna stop crying!!
i wanna stop fighting!!
STOP BEING RIDICULOUS!!!

*argh*

cud sumone pls drown out or block my tearducts!!!!

oh fark it~
it doesnt matter~
cos nothin matters~
cos i dun bother~
i dun care~

GOOD NITE!!!!!

im goin nuts.
i think i mite js drown in my own tears and die.
or maybe i have schizophrenia which i dun realise.

oh wateva, wateva, wateva.

i shall do wateva i like.
say wateva i say.
cos it doesnt matter! rite?!?!

hmmmmm . . .

wat is wrong?

issit me or issit not me?

omg!!!!

i do not know wat is happening atm.

sumtimes, its just silence.

sumtimes, this song js plays over again n again.

why? why? why?

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

or maybe, NOBARDEEEE is talking or asking or wateva.

no questions. no answers. no nothing.

GREAT!!

this is js great.

hmmmm, wow~

oh well. sleeeeep iz the more important.

nites!!

oh my freaking goD!!!!!

i met this weird weird weirdest dude this morning.
omg omg!!! hes like this super duper weird guy and i need to let it out~

firstly, i parked my car nicely at the housing area where i usually do. i got out, checked to see if its all orite, then i walked off. suddenly, this dude, lets name him 'Weirdo' came up to me and said "Hi".

i stared at him thinking as if he was sum kinda freak.

he looked back at me, smiled and words started flowing!!!!

W: u dun remember me?

B: errrr . . . . NO (WTF??)

W: i introduced myself to u last time at the lobby.

B: oh. ok (again, WTF??)

W: wah. u totally dun remember me.

B: (smiled)

W: im edison. ur bee wei rite?

B: oh. hi.

W: wah. u really cannot remember me.

B: hmmmm (OK!! HELLO. WILL U LET IT GO ALREADY?!?!)

he did try to strike a normal conversation with me but i couldnt be bothered. i walked really fast and far far away from him. i wanted to get him out of my sight. unfortunately, he works in the same tower but different blocks. DAMN IT!! so, he was js right behind me.

arGH!!! so annoying!!!

*grrrrrrrrr*

when i reached, i walked even faster into the building and straight to the elevator. i wanna run away from Mr.Weirdo cos he kept on asking me whole load of questions and i feel like asking him to SHADDUP HIS FREAKING FACE!!!!

i settled myself down at my table, turned on my PC and i started asking my fwen who works in HP. turns out that my fwen dun really know him as he is a computer engineer who does computer thingy. my fwen dun even know wat he does exactly *deng*

oh wow. wat a morning!

*grrrrrrr*

this incident actually happened on Sunday night while i was sleeping in my parents room.

Scenario:
Mummy took sleeping pill due to the reason she was unable to sleep well for the past few days and because my family fwen came down from Singapore, she needs to be at her top utmost physical appearance. so, she decided to pop the pill and the funny mumblings started to kick in.

first 20 minutes after the pill kicked in . . .

M: *mumble*mumble*

B: huh? r u talking to me?

M: wei . . . do u take ecstacy?

B: WAT!!! of cos not. craaaaazy. i dun do these kinda things.

M: yea. i dun think u shd. its not good. u will get drowsy like me now.

B: HAHAHAHAHA. wat are u saying? go to sleeeeeep!! ur on pills.

M: yea. i think its kickin in now *mumble*mumble*

next 15 minutes . . .

M: (sat up on the bed lookin around the room dazed)

B: wat r u doing? wat u looking for? go to sleep.

M: i want to check if its drowsy. i think i see mountains.

B: WAT?!!? HAHAHAHAHAHA

M: (lie back on bed)

the following 10 minutes . . .

M: (got up the bed, relying on the wall to take her to the cupboard to get face mask) wooooah~ wooooah~

B: omg!! wat r u doin? wat do u want!?!??!

M: face mask. woooooooah~ my head is spinning now. wooooooah~

B: *LOL* can u pls go back to bed. lemme get it for u.

M: i found it (few seconds looking at the thing) wait. this is not. this is a tissue.

B: HAHAHAHAHAHA. yes it is. lemme get it for u ok (trying to hold her)

M: ok ok. can u pls put the tissue back in the same place (attempting to go back to bed herself by holding onto the wall) wooooooah~

B: HAHAHAHAHA . . . here here. lemme help u. the bed is here.

M: wooooah!!! (still holding onto the wall)

B: (cant stop laffing and helping mummy on to the bed)

M: where is my pillow?? (its right in front, actually) wooooooah~

B: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and i slept at 2.30am.

:o)