ever felt that u wanna live someone else's life? know wot they do, know wot they think. i've always tot that my life is not interesting and i sumtimes have this crazy thought that i wanna be someone else, live their life, be in their shoes for once and see how things are for them in THEIR life. how nice would that be? it would be like an adventure. that will be exciting tho >.< suddenly, i could read their minds and live their life and see wot they dislike or like and other stuff. that would be cool. yeah~ have that thought since years ago~~ yes yes~ long long time........ +.O
sometimes, u feel tired and u'd think that u need to sleep. DOH~ who doesnt? so, u lay urself nice and cosy into bed, but then, u realise u cant sleep. ur mind wanders around like it always does. it just floats up up and away into the open air and start to think about stuff which u cant control at all. the next u know *PoooOOoooF* it drops and then u fall asleep when u dun even realise it, BUT, on the other hand, it doesnt always just drops and u fall asleep. sometimes it just goes on and on, to a far far away land until u start thinking to urself ...... OMG~ am i goin nuts? wot am i doin? wot the hell? go to sleep! O.o hmmmm~ i wonder. my mind rambles about stuff all the time. irrelevant stuff. relevant stuff. almost everything. but suddenly, i dunno wot i was thinking about. maybe there are just too mnay things on my mind. i just couldnt be ask to think about it anymore. it comes to a point where i go WOTEVA with it!!! yeah~ couldnt care less. uh-oh
life goes on nway. so woteva to woteva it is~ right!! am i makin any sense anymore?? *haha* i dunno.
take things slow. take it easy. bla bla bla and all that. yeah~ just move on and see how things are, i guess.
looking for jobs rite now. i've been a REAL SUPER bum ^(OO)^ for the past half a year? *hehe* oh well. chill chill~ i get ppl tell me working life is not that great either. so take ur time again *gosh* the same things over and over again.
geeeeeeeeeez.......i realise im back to wot i wanted to avoid all my life. freedom~ yes yes. not that i dun get it now but, the fact that they always tell me wot to do. dun come home late, dun sleep late, dun shower late, dun this and dun that, do this and do that~ OMG OMG!! thats already driving me nutS! i just cant stand it. altho yeah, they are my parents but but, @#%!#% i need my space. i need silence. i dun wanna talk sumtimes. i dun have the mood to talk. i get irritated by little things my mum does somehow. omg~~ wot is wrong with me???
i think im too used to living in sydney by myself with no one to bother about wot i do. yea~ she cares. i know. which mum doesnt? but but, OMG......the constant naggings and stuff. i HATE it!!!! i HATE naggings with PASSION!!!!! seriously. i cant take it when ppl repeat the same things over and over again every DAMN bloooody day. ARGhghghgh!!!! sometimes, i just wanna scream at her but then again, i wouldnt cos i would think.......wot the hell? why would i do that? wots the use? cos she will NEVER EVER stop wot shes doin cos they love me. bla bla bla~ geeeeeeeeez~ ok. this is the one thing i really hate back here. taking all that crap everyday. bloooody hell. if the naggin stops, OMG~ thats like....paradise and peace for me.
things i learnt today:
1. take things slow, take it easy, chill *hah*
2. the feeling of missing is sumtin u really need to deal with, but cant? hmmm~
3. love or like? same thing? no!! i came across a FAQ article, hence, i go hmmm~
4. sleep when u are tired~ *hehe*
5. shut ur blooody mouth when u are suppose to
6. talk nicely all the time
7. dun show irritated attitute!! seriously, keep ur thingy to urself
8. when u r feeling sad, DO NOT watch sad movies~
9. feel like crying?? JUST CRY!
lastly, say wot u want. always say wot u want! not only that, but, say how u feel too *sigh* b4 u regret, i think? *aha*
i've always liked this chorus by Nelly Furtado - Powerless
Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
So say what you want
yupyup~
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