oh boy~
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! HAPPY 2006!!
a new year means a new beginning means a new start which leads to new resolutions (then again, not like i follow or achieve my resolutions nways =oP ) ahhhhhhh~ a NEW YEAR....has come and gone so quickly *gosh* i could remember 2005 so well. it all seemed like it just happened yesterday. as if it all happened not long ago. there were if cos pleasant and horrible memories which seems to float around my head reluctant to leave my mind alone. oh well~ those were the good and bad times, i guess. everyone goes thru it. everyone HAS to go "yeah~ been there, done that" yupyup~ i guess thats life~ >.<
i wonder wot this year will bring me? im anticipating. well, not anxiously, not really into the surprise and not into the excitement. i had this feeling since NYE. everything seemed normal to me. as if it was JUST another day to me. altho, yeah~ its 2006 but but, its JUST another day~ seroiusly. i duno why im feeling like that tho. suddenly, i just felt bored and i had nothing betta to do. ah crap~ then again, prolly my NYE didnt end well, i suppose.
my NYE celebration was as usual. i went clubbing with my fwens. the regular club again *gosh* i felt bored that nite. hmmmm~ i think it was mainly cos a fella stepped on my toe and it bled. all i did that nite was sitting outside the club and crieD!! bloooooody hell! can u believe it?? OMG!!! i couldnt even believe it myself. i cried on NYE while everyone was goin...wOoooo hooooo~ yay!!! HAPpy NY!!!! goin all drunk and la la la~ and i was like.... *sniff*sniff* i felt bad cos my fwens were out there tryin to comfort me (gettin my mind of the pain)
*sigh* really din understand y i cried? *hehe* come to think about it, i think i was dumb!! >.< oh well. yeah~ it was hurting like mad. yes it really did HURT. then again, maybe some part of me wanted to just cry and let it out and that was my 'cover up' somehow??? *sigh* i just feel so stressed out sometimes with work. same routine everyday. no life and all that *gosh* i just hope things will be betta and things will change.
while i was at work today, i started to ponder about my life. i do believe in fate. i duno why. i usually dun but today, it just struck me. well, im not like a SUPER PRO believer but, somehow, today, i just felt that fate is true at times. prolly cos of the ppl i meet, the fwens i made and the things i do. i wonder sometimes, if they are all link together? +.O
if i didnt join the audit firm, i wouldnt have met so many ppl and made fwens. BUT, the fact that i did, i got the chance to work with them, go out, hang out, this and that. and its a small small world out there. ppl seemed to be connected to at least 6 degrees of someone else's fwens. like "oh u know him/her?? yea yea...me tooo" its as if its the circle of life~ O.O *hehe*
and i trust that things happen for a reason. ppl do things for a reason. altho, i dun get why they do it sumtimes but yes, always happen for a reason. and yes... SHIT always happens!!! >.<
and i would also like to comprehend that the human behaviour is complex at times *hehe* boy, am i gettin abit philosophical tonite?? *haha* +.O i dunno really, maybe i have this vague impression on people? its either i dunno how to judge or observe them well? like maybe i need straight forward statements. get to the point!! clear cut!! dig??? LOL!!! mad mad!!
oh, and my banana-ny fwen told me that im not lost~ he thinks that i just duno wot i want in life. i dun have a dream. i dun have a mission in life atm. was it mission or vision?? *haha* i think he mentioned vision instead? O.o yea i guess. well, i shd say i dunno. prolly tru. hmmmm~ i shd search for a guide?? or just wait? but waiting wun help! DOH!!! *sigh* life life~
and CHENGY!! sorry i neva had the time to chat with u . i miss u heaps as well!!! the times we talked and '8 8' on MSN and phone. bla bla bla on other ppl's life and pictures??? LOL!!! our girly talks where only WE UNDERSTAND each other *gosh* yeah~ i miss those.......especially those "YEAH! i know!!! I understand!!! its the same!!!" well, u know wot i mean, dun cha?? >.< oh well~ *hugssssssssss*
well, also wanna wish my dear sydney fwens who still reads my blog once in a blue mooon??? or neva did at all?? *hehe* nways, i still miss u guys. sydney is still fun for me *hugssssssssssssssss* those days there. dw dw~ i'll try and come back~ yes yes!! +.O
oh boy~
strangers come and strangers go. some stay deep in ur heart and some mite leave scars in them. its really up to u to decide who will stay and who shall leave, who makes u happy and who keeps u company.
opportunity dun come all the time ya~ remember that!
aha~ the BeE has spoken for the commencement of the year 2006!!
*muahahahaha* *gosh*
until then, tooooooooooooooooodLes~~
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