i really like this picture.

cos . . . .


its furry!!

*hahahaha*

well, not so, but look it.

come on!!

its moooo, mooooo, moooooo~

:)

"it's not about who loves you the most.

It's about who will love you till the end no matter what."


^___________^


and i hope . . .

it will be the person I'm thinking . . .

RIGHT NOW!

aaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!

Meet my beloved fat furry toy . . .

Celery

:)

and Brinjals bullying him on first day.

*hehe*

*muaaaaxxxxxxxx*

thank yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew~

Slėpynės = Hide and Seek

"we live on in a never ending fashion here and there,
in hopes that someday . . .
we both see each other like clear crystals"

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Swallows dismantle the sky,
It breaks into pieces,
Right behind my windows,
Like dragonfly wings,
I stick them to my face,
So that when you come you cannot find me...

Cannot find me...
Cannot find me...

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"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead"

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the minds of people are wired differently, which is why everyone thinks and acts in their own way. then, there are some of those where moods are affected by little things in life and they hold on to it for a week or two depending on what the matter is of cos.

how long can the annoyance last? i believe that will more or less affect the way a person is towards the other.

Word of the day:

ICE COLD

;p

nway, the feeling of disconnection comes from not seeing physically and not communicating with the other, which by the way happens to me all the time. strange but true. sometimes, it happens so often, im afraid that i mite just lose it. my mind is telling me that i shouldn't but in reality, i can't do anything about it. its as if there is no control over myself. i try not to go there but somehow, it happens, like an auto switch.

maybe this is why couples stray away from each other and eventually fade off just like that . . . by not doing anything, by not putting in the effort to do anything. in other words, they are just bloody LAZY to work on it OR, blame the TIME factor.

relationships are difficult to maintain. even more so if they are both wired differently, which is always the case. so, when one is trying and the other is not, doesn't it always end up in separate ways? well, it is tiring for only one person to keep trying and leading, where the other just does nothing, yes?

"What you choose to do about it is what ultimately counts"

does a shift in moods affect as well? whereby, u were normal and suddenly u turn into an ice cold bitch the next day. hmmmm . . . im sure it happens! maybe it was the disconnection that contributed to this and they become a total stranger in one day. is this explanation a bit ridiculous?

everyone has secrets.

keep them, tell them, u decide.

it was all said and done in the past. fine. leave it there.

so, let it go and move on!!

Bitter heart, bitter heart . . . tries to keep it all inside

Bitter heart, bitter heart . . . shadows will help you try to hide

Bitter heart, my bitter heart . . . is getting just a little fragile

Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine . . .

>.<

Rihanna - California King Bed

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close

Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
oohhh next to me

Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on the stars
For your heart for me
My California King

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter

So confused, when I asked you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California King
My California King

came back feeling upset even though i had so much fun over there. however, brought back a confused feeling as well. dunno how to explain that but it bugged me and heightened the emo part inside of me.
hmmm, maybe it was the stuff we took over there that enhanced it!? u think? like, it actually brought out the other side of me!? -___-

*strange*

it bugs me more than ever and i cant pin point why it is even happening now at this point in time. i honestly think that it amplified even more that night while talking about it. well, i hate that feeling. i hate it with passion.

*sigh*

but, its all in the past. so why does it still bother me!? cos i care more now? does that mean i didnt care previously? if this goes on, i think it will eat me inside and i will go berserk over something that probably does not mean anything at all.

*damn it*

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Hatred hurts.

Temptation misleads.

Forgiveness heals.

Love fulfills.

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someone shared this with me and i tot it was damn funny!!!

enjoy~

it pisses me off when u make statements that are not true. well, its obvious that u are full of utter rubbish and seriously in need of help. ur mentality and perception is totally out of hand. im quite sure u know wat u are saying but do u actually understand wat ur saying!? its ur inferiority that led u to where u are now~ i feel sorry for u. i really do.

did u even bother trying to get to know the people?
did u even bother trying to correct the wrongs?
did u even bother trying to commit urself and work on it?
did u even bother trying to understand the situation?

there are things that i cant judge cos i do not know wats happening. however, its the way u are and the way u think which totally irritates the bones out of me. how on earth did u even get through things and survive all these times? hmmm . . .

"Sometimes, two people have to fall apart for them to realize how much they need to fall back together."

i think it depends on how much the couple want it to work and whether they want it to work. when one takes the other for granted, then things change. when one does not do anything to help it, shit happens. they really need to compromise on it!!

but, u cant blame them if they dun feel the same or feel less of the other cos every little thing adds up to the relationship.

what if she dun miss him like before?
what if he never cared for her like before?
what if she dun feel like talking to him?
what if he dun tell her things no more?
what if she dont know wats going on?
what if he thinks shes crazy?

when people change, the situation changes with it, which leads to character change and in conclusion, the relationship shifts 360. once this happens, it alters everything! what else can u do to save it when there is nothing left!? i believe when one loses it. u bid farewell to it. there no point fixing it cos there is just so much a person can take for so long.

*Le Sigh*

why is it so complicating?
why cant things be simple?
oh, blame universe!!

what if one day there was nothing left to say?

what if one day u lose the things u had in common?

what if everyday becomes a routine?

what if all thats left were only disagreements?

what if everything was frustrating?

i seriously wonder what the future brings. u won't know what will happen unless u give it a try and went through with it. then again, will there be a guarantee that everything will turn out alright? however, if something was wrong in the beginning, would u even bother giving it a try? would u even want to continue something that was wrong in the first place?

so, question is . . . would u give it a chance to see if things work out or just give up from the very beginning to avoid heartbreaks? hmmm, but u wouldnt know the ending? and wouldnt u want to know the ending?

well, if you really gave it your best and things still dont turn out the way u wanted, i guess u cant force it. there is no way u can change things when one gives up or one does not want to co-operate or one takes the other for granted.

its happens to all and its really up to u whether u wanna do anything about it, whether u actually commit yourself and treat it like an everyday job. yes, its tiring and its confusing at times but it needs to be worked on cos that's how it is and that's how u survive it.

i know it is easier said than done, but it wont work if u dun practice it. also, if everyone understands how the process is and actually live by it, wouldnt the world be a happier place for everyone without disagreements? everyone will live happily ever after like in the fairy tales. yeah?

i totally understand that u have given all u had and tried to make things work. however, some decisions are to be made and i hope its for the best. i truly truly hope so and its ok that u cant take it anymore cos everyone has their limits.

*Le Sigh*

Chris Medina - What are Words

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent
Just from me and now know I'm meant
To be where I am and I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

*sob sob* :'(

i seriously hate it when this occurs.

hate it, hate it, hate it!!

i cant control it.
i cant resist.
i cant do anything about it.

that is wat bothers me!!

*uuuuurrrghhhhh*

damn it!!

it comes and goes like the seasons in the sun.

y so moody!? why?? why?? why??

guess im gettin used to how the way things are that,
i am being programmed to function a certain way . . .

Life Mission is a . . . long long way ahead.

so . . . my dearest partner in crime~

ARE u ready??

ARE u with me??

ARE u up for it??

ARE u sure??

ARE u really really sure??

lets hope so.
lets get there.
let make it!!

do u see a future in us?

do u believe in us?

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hmmm.

i dunno.

how do u know?

i guess, potentially??

im getting so used to it, sometimes i wonder if its a good thing or a bad thing? cos i cant figure that out yet.

*oh boy*

but for now, its fine. i mean im not feeling as strange as i did before. honestly, i dun even know if its good or bad.

*baaaaaah*

h'okay. 2 ways to look at this, either ur getting comfortable or ur gradually gettin out of it. hmmm, which one applies tho?

i think . . . all i need is that someone to be there for me and catch me when i fall. that someone who will fight for me and protect me forever. that someone who makes promises and not break them. that someone who really loves me when im around and loves me more when im not.

until i meet someone who makes me believe all that, i will give all my heart and all else that comes with it - sugar, spice and everything nice

*hee hee*

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts

i know i can’t take one more step towards you
cause all that's waiting is regret
don’t you know i’m not your ghost anymore
you lost the love i loved the most

i learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?
runnin’ round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
tearing love apart

you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
so don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

i hear you’re asking all around
if i am anywhere to be found
but i have grown too strong
to ever fall back in your arms

i've learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart

you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

it took so long just to feel alright
remember how to put back the light in my eyes
i wish i had missed the first time that we kissed
cause you broke all your promises
and now you’re back
you don’t get to get me back

who do you think you are?
running around leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart

you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
so don’t come back for me
don't come back at all

:'(

oh crap!

i just realise that i do sabo myself.

so, it was me all these while~

oh dear!

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