im on sick leave for 2 damn days *wooooooooooooooooooo hooooooooo* i went to visit my doc on MOn and he said i shd rest and be on medication. so... SURE, Y NOT?!?!?! its as if im on holiday or sumtin and YES, it feels GREAT to get off work and not think about work at all!! >.< did i mention that i mite make a bad employee? *hahaha* jk jk
yeah~ it seems i really stressed out both my fat thighs. hence, i need REST *hehe* good tho. i am resting. i've been at HOME for 2 damn days now. i neva stepped out of the house. well, ok. stepped out an hour or so for lunch with mummy, but not exactly go out to play? *hehe* nways~ its all good now. feel much betta today. i was basically walking like a turtle yesterday. walking SUPER SUPER SLOW. cos my thighs were pulling real hard. so tensed up. even my mum laffed at me!!! can u believe it?!?!?? she was like "HAHAHAHAHA. now ur walking even slower than me!! HAHAHAHHA"
lets see how did i pass my time at home? *geeeeee* i guess im quite predictable tho. i have nothing to DO at home. so i spent my time online chit-chatting, watchin tv, eat, sleep and u know the bummin things *haha*
well, i was just chasing my series these days. my 'ONe Tree Hill' with my cute guy in it. i have 3 more episodes left to the finale of season 2 *wooooooo hooooo* actually, i js finished one js then and i loved one quote in there, so i decided to google it up AND GUESS WOT!!! i think they got one of the words in their script WRONG!! *hahaha* yes yes. it is wrong.
Who knows what true loneliness is - not the conventional word but the naked terror? To the lonely themselves it wears a mask. The most miserable outcast hugs some memory or some illusion.
~Joseph Conrad~
they said true HAPPINESS instead of true LONELINESS *AHAAAA* >.<
bcos of this quote, i got to thinking. WOT ever happened to me?? i used to like to look up quotes and write poems myself. yeah~ im an Amateur. super super unprofessional one *hahaha* i suppose it wass the mood that sets me into it. the emotions i felt last time. i checked back on my last poem i wrote, it was dated 9th JULY 2005. that was like exactly one year when i got back from Sydney *gosh* i can still remember perfectly how i felt when i got back here. the depressed and living in misery 'me' *sigh*
i believe i was lonely and miserable. yes yes~ i felt like i lost someone. i lost something back then *sigh* i can still feel the unhappiness so vividly. i guess i just think back about it sometimes.
i absolutely missed everything i had there. the place, the peeps i had, the FOOD!! and everything under the sun. not to mention, the BEACHES!! DAMN!! just love those beaches so damn much.
and my fwen just mentioned about the warmth of huggin someone . . . . . . :oP
yeah~ i totally miss that too. huggin someone is great. expecially huggin someone u like/love. isnt that great. i love hugs. its fun to just hug. no reason why. just any random hug is pleasurable. fwens, family, anyone~ O.o
maybe my life isnt very exciting enuff. maybe i need to find somethin to look forward to do. one of my fwens was telling me that he wanna do some volunteer work or woteva. that got me wondering, what can i do? what can i look forward to? i think im just bein plain lazy. ahhh...CRaP~ i suck man!! >.<
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