i hate being in a confused state.
i hate cheapskate ppl.
i hate being lost.
i hate indecisiveness.
i hate being told wat to do.
i hate gossipers.
i hate being such a pushover.
i hate arguments or stuck in btwn one.
*sigh*sigh* so many things i hate. i think im filled with a sligth wrath in me today. damnit! and i wonder y? oh dear #$*@%&*@ sumtin is so wrong but still tryin to figure it out. i guess its all the damn questions in my head that is buggin me for the whole damn week.
well, Desperate Housewives and Heroes finally ended their season finale. i was glued to my laptop right after i got home from work this whole week O.o both had really good finale stories. now, im so eager to watch the new season, but, damnit, i hate to wait and i HATE waiting! *sigh* this always happens at the last epi of every series. they leave u hanging sumwhere and u jus get so enthusiastic to watch the new ones.
one of the last few epis of Desperate Housewives, is so related to wat im feeling atm. it was about the questions in life, in fact, in everyones life. story was like: each of the housewives had various questions about everything but they are jus too afraid to ask to find out about the truth and get hurt.
i guess its part of everyone, everywhere. doesnt matter young or old, gal or guy. questions are always there in their minds. wat matters is the truth. whether or not u want to hear it and would u get hurt when u find out about it. when u really find out about certain things, thats when happiness takes place. u finally can let go of sumtin thats been buggin u the whole damn time, OR the other way around, which i dun think u wan it to happen tho.
somehow, ppl jus cant open their mouths to ask. its as if they have gold in them. yea yea, i know those some ppl. that 'some ppl' mite even be me, myself and i *haha* tsk tsk~ i reckon its the fear in me. i cant face them and i choose not to face them. i choose to avoid. YES! im an avoider. i like to avoid. i hate fights, arguments.... bla bla bla. i avoid everything that mite have the slightest chance of hurting me or making me feel uncomfortable.
phobia? hmmmmmm~ im not quite sure. all i know is, i AVOID!! im a slow and peaceful creature? +.O yea i reckon i am.
its a damn random post today cos i woke up feeling this way. i've been thinking about stuff and i wanna rant and rave about it *hoho* nways~ was chillin to my all-time favourite song the whoel day. absolutely love this song. always nice to hear. whenever, wherever. its a F.E.E.L song, for me tho.
Jewel - You Were Meant For Me Lyrics
I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
Got my eggs and my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but you.
Break the yolks, make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
Never put wet towels on the floor anymore' cause
Dreams last so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
Called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
Picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
Saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy or I was sad and
It made me miss you oh so bad
Dreams last so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
Go about my business, I'm doin fine
Besides, what would I say if U had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday.
Brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up. Turn the sheets down.
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pj's and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight
Dreams last so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon I know you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you
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