queen B has spoken . . .

. . . there shall be silence

queen B has been stabbed . . .

. . . they shall mourn

queen B has departed . . .

. . . hopeless emptiness

and all that is left . . .

. . . NOTHING!

* * goodnight * *

when they dun listen, wat can u do?

when they dun listen, wat can u say?

. . . comes to a point . . .

when they STILL dun listen, wat ELSE can u do?

when they STILL dun listen, wat ELSE can u say?

i guess "dunno" would be the answer.

a question is popped and the reason is explained.
however, it turned out to be unsatisfying.
well, wat else is there to say when everything is being drowned out?

i reckon its easy for the person to tell an answer but its really difficult for the other to accept it.
no one is blaming anybody here.
no finger pointing here.
i totally understand the situation if i were u and that if i were to put myself in ur shoes.
insecurities happen all the damn time. its how u actually assure the other one.
sad to say, i suck at it.

HOWEVER,
ppl choose whether or not to accept the fact / truth / reality.
ppl also choose whether or not to accept the reason / explanation / answer.

choices, choices, choices!!

well, if they made up their mind and have already chosen, wats the point in further discussing about it?

= dunno =

i may be the cause to 'confusion'.
sometimes, i confuse myself.
CORRECTION! i confuse myself all the time.
prolly cos i duno wat i want rite now.

MY sincere APOLOGIES to those that i have confused all these while.

if im a burden anyhow, please leave me alone.
if im the cause, please dun talk to me.

i prolly need my SPACE to think about things, which then again, boils down to whether or not i will actually sit and think about it or just let it fly by.

the latter?

hmmmm~ its late. i cant think. im shitting myself. WATEVA!

*runs off*

my eyes are twitching.

my legs are sore.

my mind is sleepy.

my body is lethargic.

maaaaaan~

then comes this big unexpected 'FINE, NVM' thingy.

omg!! wat the...

*sigh*

y cant u tell the 'real' reason?

y cant u js say it?

y cant u notify?

i think there is this technology called SMS but oh well, too bad. cos WHY rite?

WHY?? WHY?? I DUN WAN!!

omg~

*sigh*

nvm then. if u say so.

"will you be willing to walk this journey with me??

i will love you forever.

i will take care of you forever.

i will spoil you forever.

please, just gimme the chance."

how super sweeeeeeeeeeet it is for a guy to say that to a gal?

OMG!!!!
i would like fall head over heels over him (if im in love with him, that is)

*awwwwwwwwww * @.@ sooooo sweeeeeet!!!!

nothing much. it was this TVB series that i just finished not long ago called 'Forensic Heroes II'. mostly all about crime investigation, forensic stuff, collecting evidence of this n that, bla bla bla, of cos, bit of romance here n there. not too bad i guess.

i've switched to canto series now cos im STILL waiting for my GG to resume airing!! *grrrrr* i think it should be out this week or nex. oh well. im a patient gal~

there are times when u ponder upon things that u shdnt.

things that make u feel sad when u think about it.
things that make u feel regret cos u didnt do it.
things that make u feel emo due to sumtin that happened.

there are many things in life that cant be controlled. however, it is ur life!

u have the call to wat u want.
u have the call to how it ends.
u have the call to change it.
u have the call to wat future brings.

oh boy. i need to hit the sack.
watching too much emo action TVB drama makes me think *haha*

nitey nite!!!

oritey. lets try to have a happy blog then.

lemme introduce my new poKe-y fwen. i got it from my "Secret Santa" in office. its black and cute and it doesnt POKE! :)

nways, the mini Xmas tree was setup at home js to blend in with the environment. la la la~


oh well. 2008 went away with a breeeeeze. a new year has begun!!

this was not a beginning year "Surprise" though. this was a 2008 surprise gift from . . . a 'wanted' criminal?!?! *haha*

its really funny. i received this together wit a lil' note which says . . .

"this fella is wanted by the authority for destroying a plantation full of beautiful-full-of-love-roses"

"whenever he does strike, the most precious-loved roses will be destroyed or go missing"

seriously, i laughed my arse off!!! craaaaaazy!!!

and im really proud of myself cos i did my own manicure!! aint this pweeeety?? (ok. if its not, dun tell me)
this was done last minute, lets say, 2 hours before my fwen's wedding dinner.

i was too lazy to drive out, look for a parking, do my manis & pedis, then drive home and get ready. omg!! seems like a very hectic day but hell no... it was a Sunday and i cant be bothered ^(OO)^

anyhow,

i am STILL in a holiday mood!!! damn!!!
my brains dun work at all. my mind dun think. my hands dun feel.
i feel demotivated and i dunno why.
oh dear. my mind is everywhere. im random. dun have a specific topic today.

i shall end this random blog with a happy ending then. DO ENJOY this lovely figurine i came across while i was in Singapore. i love it!!

last but not least . . . an emo song . . .

Babyface and After 7 - ’til You Do Me Right

I was in love with you
And gave my heart to you
I did my best to keep you satisfied
You took the love from me
And used it selfishly
You did not give back your
Love to me at all

I gave the sun to you
You said it was too bright
I gave you diamond rings
You said they didnt shine
I gave my world to you
But you said its not enough
What in the world could I have done
To make you be so rough

til you do me right
I dont even want to talk to you
I dont even want to hear you speak my name
til you do me right
Only wrong is gonna come to you
Nothin good is gonna come til you change
Change your ways
Until you change your evil ways

Girl I was there for you
Someone you could talk to
How could you just keep breakin my heart
What did I do to you
To make you be so cruel
I dont understand why youve been so wrong

I tried to be your strength
You said I was too strong
I tried to compromise so
We could get along
I gave my love to you despite
Your evil ways
I guess its clear to me theres only
One thing left to say

Theres a time when you know what you
Feel inside your heart
Its tellin you that somethin feels strange
You dont have to deny it
All you gotta do is just try it
Youll find our love grows
Stronger if youre willing to change

i was pondering today.

we should express our true feelings to those who are around / beside you at this very moment.

tell them u miss them.
tell them u love them.
tell them u wanna spend ur time with them.
tell them everything thats been in ur heart all this while.

cos . . . u will regret it if u dun. ur still young. life is short. live it!

say 'YES' to life?!?! * wink * wink *

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! its 2009!!

however, i dun have that 'happy happy' feeling.

i felt that i didnt achieved anything.
i felt that i did nothing.
i felt that im still the same person.

so many things have happened for the past few weeks and none are 'happy' news. although it doesnt affect me much in my daily life but i feel for those who lost their loved ones. i do~

they seem like they are ok, but deep down, they aren't. i know they are not. how can they be? i know they will breakdown anytime but they cant.

they need to be strong in front of others.
they need to hold the fort at home.
they need to take on more responsibilities from now on.

*sigh*

i cant take it when i hear ppl crying.
i cant take it when i see ppl crying.

cos . . . i will cry when they do.

*sigh*

its a new year ahead!!

no more sad endings.
no more anguish moments.
no more annoying ppl.
no more crappy situations.

i am lazy.
i am tired.
i cant be bothered to go thru the same ol' things i did in 2008.
i dun wanna!!

if it happens, too bad. its inevitable.
if it doesnt, great. its my luck.

:O)

goodnite and goodluck to me.

REPORTING from the land of the lion . . . again . . .

it has been 2 years since i last visited here *gosh* so much has changed. well, it has been 2 years, and im pretty sure ALOT have changed. everything and everyone changes nway.

there are so many things to see now (Singapore Flyer, Marina Barrage, Sentosa Island) and so much development goin around and NOT TO MENTION the CRraaaaazy post Christmas sales thats happening rite here, rite now!!!

* argh *

do u know how fearful i am of the word "sales"???

OOOOh my GOD!!!
i am. i truly am. im afraid of myself sumtimes but i still cant resist the temptation of the damn word.

* grrrrrr *

OF COS i shopped!! wat the hell!??! its a bargain rite now and i think i would be a fool if i didnt throw myself at it *hehe*
and i so missed my niece and nephew. i bought them Xmas gifts and put them under their mini Xmas tree . . . :O)

i spent so much time playing, talking, eating and shopping with them.
like today, i was reading storybooks with Alyssa for nearly an hour and ended up watchin a classic cartoon with them - 'Aladdin'.
ahhhh~ how it brings back memories. i love them so much last time that i memorised everything. and i was singing along the whole time. i felt like a kid again :OP

moving on . . .

sumtimes, things js creep up into ur mind when ur not noticing. it just comes and goes for a bit. then, u feel like sumtin is missin out or ur missing sumone or u just feel like ur alone.

*taken from deviantart.com by ©2005-2008 ~chelx*

everywhere u walk, everything u see, wateva u do, wherever u are . . .
u always think about him, u always miss him . . .
its the little things that make u realise that.
like when u walk pass a guys department store, u'll be thinking (hey, he mite like this shirt or hey, this would look nice on him)

well, all boils down to this image i found on the web. i really really wan a hug.

*also take from deviantart.com by 'AngELofREbellion' - work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 3.0 License*

however, when one receives an sms/msn which is such a turn off, i just feel like shutting myself out from the world. totally dun feel like talking at all.

the same thing is gonna happen AGAIN.
the same damn conversation is gonna happen AGAIN.
the bloooody same old QnA is gonna happen AGAIN.

damn it!!!! it really is annoying and irritating that it happens over n over, again n again n seems like its goin on forever.

* sigh * sien *

seriously, i hate it. when im in such a good mood, suddenly out of nowhere, it just bloody hell spoils everything.

y does one always have to be so angry?
y does one always have to say ok.fine?
y does one always have a revengeful heart?
y does one always have to end by saying wateva.have fun then?

WHY? why? WHY??!?!

sumtimes, i feel its a routine and im gettin so tired n lazy to even talk about it.

* sigh *

once, this was being mailed to me as a reply to my blog. my eyes turned watery while i was reading it . . . (this is js part of the many sweet replies)

things dun seem to change.
why?
(bcos both are still stuborn, bcos i am jus totally damn stupidity stuborn)

things dun seem to work out.
why?
(ok, i agreed, I totally feel it too. its me, its me that created HELL)

things dun seem the way they are.
why?
(bcos a dog and a pig needs time to be as 1. its hard. one can be eaten. one cant be eaten)

then again, both are to be blamed. not only one. it always takes 2 to tango, rite? i guess its just part n parcel of life, as well as the communication and sharing of both.
come to think about it, i reckon that i dun possess any of the mentioned 'skills' :O(

oritey * sniff * sniff* nites nites

this week is like hell to me. nothing is going rite.

oh fark!

* sigh * sigh * sigh *

things dun seem to change.
why?

things dun seem to work out.
why?

things dun seem the way they are.
why?

is there still hope?
can it be saved?

is there still love?
can it be cured?

* sigh * sigh * sigh *

its soon to end year 2008 and a few weeks to welcome a new year . . .
and i feel like crap!!
why? why? why?

oh, i dunno. dun ask me. im angry. im lost. im confused. im EMO!

cos im a disappointment to one this year . . .
maybe, failure too??

*sob*sob*

*sniff*sniff*

this month is no fun.
i shall make use of these 4 walls in my room and bang my head against it to wake me up.

good idea? yes? no?

hah!

u just dunno wats gonna happen.

u just cant predict the future.

u just need to expect THE unexpected.

then, only u will respond saying "WTF!!"

i really dun geddit.

everything went smoothly yesterday.
suddenly, everything is in disarray today.

i really wonder wat will happen tomorrow.
wat will tomorrow bring?
wat has tomorrow installed for me?

sometimes, u js cant be bothered anymore.
it just happens again and again and u cant do shit about it.
u get annoyed, u say things, u do stuff . . .
u ignore, u get pissed, u dun care . . .

everybody is lost in CONFUSION again~

*sigh*

but why?

nobody DID any damn thing in the first place!!
nobody SAID any damn thing in the first place!!

oh, wait a minute. (*brain lights up like a bulb*)

maybe thats it~

u r SUPPOSE to do sumtin in the first place!
u r SUPPOSE to say sumtin in the first place!

see, if all was said and done in the FIRST PLACE, shit wouldnt happen.
am i rite? spot on? bingo? yes? no?

I DUNNO!!! (yea, keep saying i dunno . . . bla bla bla)

fine. wateva. i dunno then. i neva know. i dun wanna know.

words confuses everyone.
explanations worsen things.
bad endings depresses the whole wide world.

ok then.

its just me in my own damn world.
drowning myself in my own freaking mind.
(fuckitallandduncareaboutmethen!)

goodnite.goodbye.

talk = miscommunication

explain = disagreement

. . . combine . . .

talk + explain = miscommunication + disagreement

. . . outcome . . .

ARGUMENT!!

which will lead to destructive rage verging on madness.
which will lead to further furious disputes.
which will lead to wrathful situations.
which will lead to anguish and crude conversations.

WHICH . . . in conclusion,

will lead to both feeling downhearted and melancholy.

wateva!! (commonly used word to END conversations)

*sigh*

good nite. good luck.

a new day. a new week.

a new year. a new hope.

ok. bye.

there i go again . . .

passin u by again . . .

makes me smile EVERY time . . .

i just cant resist touching u . . .

i just cant resist hugging u . . .

i just cant resist u!!!

:O)

pOO-kEE-pOO

*hugs hugs hugs*

*ho hum*

You’ve been closing me in, closing the space in my heart,
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

(if neither is doing anything, then i reckon it will fall apart one way or another)

Well I can’t explain why it’s not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.

(explaining is inevitable, BUT, no matter how many times u explain and he dont believe u, wat is the point? can u stop him? can u ask him to not think about it? can u force him to forget? )

It’s the better thing to do,
It’s time to surrender.

(really? is that the solution to improve things? to make things better?)

It’s been too long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don’t fit anymore, Pieces don’t fit here anymore.

(if things seriously dont work out, how can it be put together in one piece when all is fake? u cant force a round piece into a square puzzle now, can u?)

Well, I’ll hide all the bruises,
I’ll hide all the damage that’s done.
But I show how I’m feeling until all the feeling has gone.

(that is how a "quiet bottled up" person would react when they are having problems)

Ooh don’t misunderstand, How I feel.
Cause I’ve tried, yes I’ve tried.

(how far have u gone? how far are u willing to go? how long will u try? the right question will be: how patient are u and how much YOU want it 2 work?)

But still I don’t know why, no I don’t know why.
I dont know why…… whyyyyyyyy!

(there is no perfect answer cos NOBODY n NOTHING is PERFECT in tis world)

*sigh*sigh*

seriously, time passes by like a gust of wind.

i tot i just settled my October CC bill not long ago and yesterday, i received ANOTHER bill. well, obviously its for last month. and every damn month is almost half my salary!!! well, sometimes it'll come up to nearly full salary, but hardly. happened only 3 times in my working life.

#$@%!%

damn it!!

blardeeee hell!!

this is never ending.

this will go on forever till i die cos thats when i will actually STOP SPENDING.

omg!!

the scariest part is that i dun realise wat i swipe it on.
when the bill comes, only then i realise . . . "OH BLARDEE HELL"
so, that was wat i spent on - shoes, clothes, warehouse sale (killer), etc.

*sigh*

i haven really saved enuff to pay off Oct and yet, here i am, spending AGAIN, trying to pay off my recent bill.
may i ask, how does that actually help?
im suppose to be saving up, but, instead im spending more.

*Arggggh*

so angry at myself. so pissed at me not being determined. damn!!
y cant i resist from temptation!?!?
y cant i refrain myself from SALES?!!?
y cant i withhold my cash!??!

and yet, here i am, complainin about shit and not even tryin.
CORRECTION: dun EVEN BOTHER tryin.

u stoooooopid gal u!!!

where is my effort?
where is my perseverance?

STOP COMPLANING and start working on it!

on top of all that, i got a police summon.

Fark man!!!

seriously, of all the damn sundays in the year, they had to come out last week and write me a note. how lovely of them to think of my car, huh? i reckon they js miss me or they are OUT to get me. farking idiots!!!

i park by the yellow line all the damn time on every sunday when im there.
i park by the yellow line cos its a blooody SUNDAY!!!

*grrrrrrrr*

oh well. prolly times are bad.
even cops are out to fish for cash.

fark!

im just being pissy and i just wanna curse them all.
im being angry cos i want to. NO! not havin PMS.
oh wateva.

just fark them all!!!

*sigh*sigh*

sometimes, u have nothing to say.

sometimes, u feel so restless.

sometimes, u wanna give up.

sometimes, u dunno wat to do.

sometimes, u get disappointed.

sometimes, u cant let go.

sometimes, u lose hope.

sometimes, u wish for things that dun come true.

sometimes, u cant help it.

sometimes, u dream too much.

sometimes, u dun feel like it.

sometimes, u ask too much.

sometimes, u expect things u shouldn't.

sometimes, u need to struggle.

sometimes, shit happens.

sometimes, u just emo.

sometimes, there are JUST no reasons.

there are so many "sometimes" in life~
but, u just neva know how u feel or why u feel that way~

cause . . .

SOMETIMES, u cant control it.

*sigh*sigh*

*AaaarRRgGGgGggggGHHhhhhhhh*

WTF!

oh my farking god!

i dun GET IT!!

*Screams in Rage*

fark the world!!

fark everyone ok!!

*AaaarRRgGGgGggggGHHhhhhhhh*

just fark it!!

nobody farking talks to me rite now.

fark virtual wateva it is.

if u dun get it, then dun.
cos i, myself cant farking get it tooo!!

!@#$%^(*

or am i over-reacting?
ok then.

fark me!!

leave it be. goodnight. goodbye. good riddance.

fark off!!

WTF!!!! seriously, like WTF!??!

M: i need u 2 write a letter and send it over to this person.

B: huh? wat for?

M: cos i wan to complain about 'this this n this'.

B: oh ok. i think u shd ask sis-in-law to write *hehe* (grinnin n jokin ard)

M: CANT U WRITE A LETTER? DUN U KNOW HOW TO WRITE A LETTER?? IM JS ASKING U TO DO LITTLE THINGS AND WRITE A FEW LINES AND U ARE SAYING THIS N THAT LIKE U DUN WAN TO WRITE!! ARE U THAT BUSY THAT U CANT WRITE A LETTER? U THINK I WANNA DEPEND ON U WRITING THAT LETTER??!?!?

B: (WTF!!!! -.-") huh? wat? i was just saying. i neva said that i dun wanna write.

M: I JUST ASKED TO WRITE A FEW LINES. IS THAT SO HARD? MUST U ASK ME TO ASK SUMONE ELSE TO WRITE? ASK U TO DO LITTLE THINGS AND U R SAYING THIS N THAT. U SO BUSY?!?! WAT U BUSY WITH??

B: (again WTF!!!) WAT?!?! i was just SAYING! I NEVA SAID THAT IM NOT GOIN TO WRITE! Y DO U HAVE TO REACT LIKE THAT!!!?!?!

M: U GO ON and ON ABOUT NOT WANTING TO WRITE!!!

B: (walked away screamin my lungs out from the kitchen) I NEVA SAID THAT IM NOT GOIN TO WRITE OK!!! (seriously, wat the hell is wrong with her)

M: I JUST ASKED U TO DO SIMPLE THINGS.

B: (oh, fark it!! WATEVA!! *walks away*)

i really dun geddit. wat the hell happened in between? i dun even know wat went wrong. did i step on her tail? did i like, raise my voice? did i ever say NO?? i just merely mentioned sis-in-law for fun.
WTF?!?!
maybe she thinks that im not serious at all. BUT i neva said that i wasnt gonna write the letter!!!

OMG!!!! @#$*#@%!^ *Arghhhh*

this is insane. all because of a stooopid statement made. man!!!
this is blooody ridiculous. i reckon her hormones are js gushing right up to her brain that she exploded over a blooody small matter on me!! like, WAT THE HELL!!!! *grrrrrrrrrr*

ok ok. chill chill. its PMS. its PMS.

nways . . .

today is just shit. like, REALLY SHIT LOAD-DAY!

breakkie bread + morning goodbyes.

mid morning meetings.

heavy lunch + noon rush.

mid noon meetings + fatigue.

late evening jams + cursing.

dinner + PMS + HORMONES RAGING + CRAP + WTF!!!

chocolate nite out + strawberries + smile.

that was my totally unexpected shittest day, however, it ended fine.

well, now i can go to bed n dream about my strawberries dipping into chocolate fondue with extra marshmallows n other fruits to go with. hmmm yum yum~ :O)

Au revoir~

met up with my fwen and we chatted for quite awhile the other day. from career talk to love life to daily things and to wateva we could bitch about. i knew exactly how she felt and i knew wat she wanted to say. i really do~ not to say that im a good person to run to for advise but, im always there to LISTEN! :O)

altho im abit of a joker and i dun think i can give 'wise' comments but, im there for you when u wanna complain or when u feel down. i will accompany u. i will try my best to help u feel betta *hugs*hugs*

everyone has their own problems.
hopefully, every problem can be solved. well, thats the ideal solution rite?

its real easy to say but super difficult to act.
u cant tell ur mind to STOP thinking just like that.
things DO NOT disappear with a snap of ur finger.
things DO NOT go away when u want it to.

there are some things that will stick to ur brain like super glue!!
seriously, u cant help it. even though u try not to think about it or try to keep urself busy 24/7, wateva thats bothering u WILL sneak up behind ur head when u least expect it and destroy u!! (ok. a lil' exaggerating)

but, hey, aint i rite?

it will come and haunt u . . .
when u lie on ur bed before u sleep.
when u are alone in the room chillin to music.
when u r working and u take breaks in between.
when u look up in the sky filled with stars.
when u r walking back to ur car / home.
when u feel phased out from everyone at dinner.

ppl say u can control the M.I.N.D but, i reckon u need the appropriate skills to do so. nway, i have not mastered it myself. wat the hell? *heh*

also, i realised that most gals are materialistic as well. those who claim that they are not, actually ARE!! hmmmm, i dunno.

points 2 ponder:
way of thinking has change as they mature?
some were born like that?
they just need pampering, like, ALL the time?
another way of showing them love n care?

mayb im js jealous!
yea. i reckon that is it. oh well. no complains for now. cant guarantee that i wun in the future. ppl do mature sooner or later. demands n expectations in life do increase no matter wat.

ahhhh, nways . . . those were the days. those were GOOD days!
it does put a smile to my face when recollections pays me a visit sometimes.

la la la~

time for me to roam free in my dream land.
far far away from troubles and annoying-ness and everything.

*hugs to myself*

"Quick to judge"

"Assume things"

"Jump into conclusions"

thats usually whats goin on in my mind when i see or hear sumtin that catches me by surprise.

in another person's point of view. their rationale theory would be:

"Don't be too quick to judge"

"Don't assume things"

"Don't jump into conclusions"

im sure there is a reason to everything. if there wasnt, then there wouldnt be an explanation in the first place.

however, after clarifying, it all still depends on whether it is solid enough to actually believe what was being explained. correct me if im wrong here? or issit only me who thinks like that? prolly so . . . cos i do believe that there might be subliminal messages hidden with it or in between those lines.

i reckon, in my defense, i just dun wanna know. thats y i dun ask and i keep quiet, as if i didnt see it or hear it.
i know, i know! im in denial all the damn time.

its either that im afraid to know and i fear that the explanation would lead to sumtin i really DUN wanna hear. sum groundbreaking news that mite hurt me or sum lame cover story that breaks my heart.

maybe i think too much.
maybe im tryin to protect myself.
maybe im not opening up.

deep down inside, somewhere, there is always a teeny weeny negative side of me that takes over the positive side. duno how that happens even when i think that im the most happy go lucky person in the world.

then again, i mite be wrong.
prolly i didnt realise that i have actually changed after all these years.
my thinking, my mindset, my rationale, my judgement, my everything.
i grew up??

O.o

wow.....

really? *snuffs*

good nite!

there is an old saying "Silence is Golden"

really?

is silence really golden?

certainly, "silence is golden" AT TIMES.

but, think about it... wat happens when silence is awkward?

when u are suppose to speak up during that very moment but u didnt.
wouldnt that lead to an uncomfortable situation?

or

would it be better to just remain silent through out?
would that make things betta or worst?

or

does that mean that there is nothing left to talk about?
there is nothing in common?
there is nothing to say?
there is nothing to share?
there is nothing to ask?

sometimes, i wonder.
maybe silence is needed at times like these.

To just remain silent at that very moment can be peaceful.
not only that, it can avoid arguments and disagreements.
i reckon it can calm a heated conversation.
however, thats all the positive mind thats talking.

on to the negative side of my brain . . .
hmmm, i reckon that it is a getaway solution to Q & A.
it is a time to ponder upon certain issues.
whether or not u shd ask?
whether or not u shd tell?

then again, it sums up to whether or not u FEEL like it.

when a question is being posted and answers are very simple.
that prolly killed it all.
i mean, its tru. its all about the FEELING.
(u know wat im trying to say here?)

well, i know how it feels like and i know exactly wat im saying O.o
cos sometimes, thats me.
thats how i feel and thats how i answer.

despite all that, thats just my opinion and about myself.
maybe im a impatient person. yeah, i think thats it. i am impatient.
nevertheless, there are ppl out there who are just like me, im sure!
it all depends on the mood and who kills the conversation first *hah*

therefore, "Silence is Golden" . . . . . . . . at times~

OH MY EFFING GOD!!! *hehe*

i finally found it!!!

YES!!!
i found my very own initials on GOSSIP GIRL *haha*
i know this might sound crazy but i totally fell in love with this initial necklace when i first saw it on Seaoson 2 GG. and yes, i know its just GG but but, it has MY initials!! i couldnt get it off my head and i needed to know how can i get it.

and of cos, thanks to the world of internet & the abundance of information online . . . .

the beautifully handcrafted signature initials are from ALEX WOO.
check her out here >>> http://www.alexwoo.com

forget Blair Waldorf!!

think of Bee Wei~
now, tell me, how cool would that be?!?
its meeeee!! its mineeee!!!
i want i want i want!!! *grrrrr*

well, i have not enquired about the designing costs + shipping costs + delivery costs and wateva costs that are involved. i DUN wanna know cos OBVIOUSLY it will COST ME a bloooody BOMB!! *sigh*

now i really wish that i didnt have to worry about expenses.
how great would everything be if i could just purchase anything without having to worry about the depletion of numbers in my bank account. daMnit!!

like, swipe my CC without a doubt.
pay cash at any amount anywhere.
buy anything online with js a click.
purchase wateva i like wheneva i want.

how awesome is that?!?!
i wanna be a manhattan elite now. . . .
look wat GG has gotten me into. damn!!

*SNAP*

ok. back to reality now cos i have my CC bills to settle A.G.A.I.N cos i really overspent these 2 months *sigh* mayb i need a part time job. a night shift or sumtin? earn extra cash. fast track money. hmmmm~ sounds like i need to do sumtin illegal.

like, become a DVD peddlar? weeds supplier? drug importer?

or, i cud opt to be a door bitch? pole dancer? ciggy promoter gal? perfume counter sales gal?

all thats said and done, mayb i shud js STOP spending.

dumbo!!!

there are so many things that i want.
i know they are not neccesities. they neva were. they are just material temptations to make me spend.
they are evil!!! evil, i tell u!!
and im vulnerable . . . * oh no * haaaaaaLp!

ok. bye. off to watch my new series now.

here comes Lipstick Jungle into my life~

*hehe*